Thursday, August 26, 2010


So, I have not been here in a long time. It seems I only really write this for myself as no one else ever reads it, or at least no one ever leaves any evidence of having read it. So, this may be it for me.

Monday, June 7, 2010


I saw someone out of the corner of my eye. I stepped out and no one was there, so I went back inside.

I became distracted and forgot I was watching and again I saw someone and went to look, but there was no one.

The next time, I was ready. I waited out of sight. Again they were there, but I was too slow. I know I felt something, but still I saw nothing.

Monday, May 10, 2010


Inch by inch, bit by bit.

Wave goodbye.

You hardly notice anymore.

And only I know why.

Thursday, May 6, 2010


Does anyone else ever wonder at what point their world starts falling into place and all the individual parts of what they will become start lining up in whatever jagged and mysterious paths they need to form in order to become who they need to become?

I can trace a path from very near the beginning of my life to where I am now that shows exactly what stones in the road, both beneficial and detrimental, I stepped on that made me exactly who I am today.

At any given point, we may wonder if the next step is the right one. We might think of all the possible outcomes of that one step and all the different options taking that step opens, or closes. Does the endless pondering, in the end, change the eventual choice and thereby, the outcome? Or do blind leaps of faith serve more than just our spontaneous natures and actually yield the best results?

The further down the road one gets, it seems all those individual steps that seemed so important and full of possibility really only add up to the whole, and in retrospect don't always seem so earth shaking. Even the most horrible things don't always live up to the attention given them at the time.

Is the unknown always really so unknown? I am beginning to wonder.

Monday, May 3, 2010


The air is warmer and the breeze coming in the bedroom window at night is fresh and wonderful.

This morning I woke up to the sound of rain hitting the new leaves.

I love the serenity of this part of spring.

Flowers are beginning to bloom and days are getting longer.

I will always remember this as the time of year when the Northern Lights go away.

It seems an incredibly romatic notion now.

Until fall...

Monday, April 12, 2010

How would I know when I am happy, if it weren't for being sad?

I feel like a few rays of sunshine are creeping into my little gray patch of the world.

Spring always makes me feel unsettled and insecure.

Maybe this was the last time.

Monday, April 5, 2010

But I don't know how to make it better.

I have been on a string of sad days for a bit now.

I feel somehow poetically sad.

I really don't know if that is better, but I can pretend.

Who else is pretending?

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Sometimes... just don't know where the day will take you.

I am aften amazed.

Really amazed.

Monday, March 15, 2010

In the End

Do you mind if we just float here like this for awhile?

I'm not ready to leave.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

A Wish

As a transplanted girl with a far flung family and friends left behind, I feel I need a more appropriate place for my typical ramblings and skewed viewpoints than I have traditionally more welcoming and hospitable to those I care about.

I struggle with finding ways to keep in touch and stay connected, but typically I find myself falling short and feeling lost and sometimes rather lonely. I wonder if this place could be a solution in some small way, and possibly even a comfort. That would mean actually getting people to come here and read and interact, which would be no small feat. If you knew my target audience, you would understand what I mean.

As I ponder the question, I know already there is no clear answer forthcoming. I am meant to drift at this moment in time, if not physically, then spiritually and emotionally. I guess I am looking for a way to bring my cherished people along with me, to help us all feel a little less alone and a little more a part of something. Don't we all want that?


If we are meant to be alone,
can't we be alone together?

If we need each other,
can't we find each other?

If we want each other,
can't we have each other?

If we need to learn,
can't we teach each other?

If we make each other happy,
can't we live in happiness together?